A recent trip reminded me how unpredictable sickle cell can be

While I realize it’s impossible to plan for every eventuality, I often think about what I could’ve done better or differently to prevent a sickle cell pain crisis. Like the random bumps in life’s journey, a crisis can happen despite my best plans.

A month has passed since I went to Mexico to celebrate my 30th birthday. I had a wonderful time; I’d made it to one of the countries on my list, and it surpassed my expectations. Wherever I vacation, so long as there is sun, sea, and tasty food, I’m content. However, the truth is that my celebrations didn’t start as expected.

I thoroughly planned for this trip, utilizing my past experiences to avoid unnecessary mistakes. I had spreadsheets detailing the cost of things and what to pack. I scheduled activities with plenty of time to rest in between. I was giving myself accolades for how organized I was.

I arrived ahead of the actual celebrations to give my body time to adjust to the unfamiliar environment. Upon my arrival in Cancún, I felt good, but I frequently checked in with my mind and body. OK, I feel a little tired. Have I had enough water? Let me take it easy. How does my body feel now?

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Despite all of this, at midnight on my second day there, I was awakened by a feeling that my mind erased until it happened again: the sense of my blood cells beginning to polymerize as they flowed through my veins. The unbearable pain was circulating throughout my body. I remember so clearly the onset of panic, anxiety, and overwhelming disappointment as the reality set in that I was having a crisis.

Every detail of my itinerary replayed in my mind as I began taking my medications. “Hopefully, the pain won’t be too bad so I can at least do the activities,” I thought. But when it settled in both of my legs, I succumbed to the negative thoughts that I wouldn’t be able to do anything on this trip.

I was overwhelmed with thoughts, emotions, and pain. I broke down into tears as I shared my pain score with a friend. I couldn’t deal with the disappointment; I felt helpless. My support network came to my rescue by calming me down, reminding me I still had time to recover. Their words put me at ease, even as the pain continued.

The crisis in my knees was terrible enough that I couldn’t walk and needed wheelchair assistance. Unfortunately, the hotel I was staying at wasn’t wheelchair-friendly, but thankfully, I had friends who could help. They hoisted my wheelchair up flights of stairs and did their best to ensure I was comfortable.

But this wasn’t how I’d envisioned my birthday celebrations. I was devastated.

In my mind, it was a race against time to get better so I could do everything on my itinerary. However, I had to adjust my thinking to ensure I did what was best for my body, and not just what I wanted to do. As the days went by, I got better and could partake in some of the things I’d planned. It was disappointing not to have done everything or be at 100%, but I’m thankful for what I could do.

My confidence about participating in potentially stressful or overwhelming events took a hit. Despite all my preparation, I couldn’t avoid a crisis.

But as time passes, my confidence and optimism are slowly returning. I can’t prepare for everything in life, especially with an unpredictable condition like sickle cell disease. The crisis was just a tiny part of what turned out to be a great birthday celebration.

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